Friday, October 1, 2010


आँखें बंद करती हूँ जब भी
सहेजने को जो सब है मेरा
न जाने कहाँ से पर तभी
सुकून दे जाता है एहसास तेरा

न मैं खुद को जानती थी, न तुझे
पर तेरा अस्तित्व पूरा कर जाता है मुझे
एक पागल सा ,नटखट सा दिल था मेरा
होठों पे बड़ी सी हंसी लिए तलाश थी
बस एक हंसी की जो पूरा करदे मुस्कुराना मेरा

जानती नहीं तुझे कुआ कहूँ
रिश्ता क्या है तेरा मुझसे
एक शरारती साथी या दोस्त कहूँ
हमराज कहूँ या प्यार कहूँ
जानती हूँ बस इतना
इन रिश्तों से ऊपर है तू

हंस देता है मेरी एक हंसी पर
एक अश्क पे रो देता है
जो बात कह ना खुद से
तू ना जाने कैसे जान लेता है

इस ज़िन्दगी ने हर कदम पर
सुख तो नहीं दिए,पर
इतना रहम कर गयी
हर गम मैं तुझे मेरे साथ कर गयी....

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

well ..when i opened dis page after almost a year later...i wanted to pen down somethng good..bt it seems like i would rather be obvious...i dnt know if m right or its jst another thought on another day...bt y do we keep on doings things which should be done nd nt take risks...y shd u study all the time in schools when u cd jst be better at nythng else..y shd we cram things to our heart out...when we hate dat...y whd we awarded with new clothes..gifts..movies nd nythng when we stand frst in class nd nt when do a gud deed or when we do jst we want to....why shd we study PCM nd be engineers when u hate maths at frst place...indeed y our parents say do this do that make us proud...make us feel gud...nd when u achieve one..dey crave for d other,,,dey wish good we know dat...bt we loose much ....u cant expect urself to play games on streets with ur neighbors after u r placed in a very high package job...u cant roam on streets on mopeds with ur frnz once u have ur own kids to take care of.,...u cant have crushes again..u cant fall in love again..u jst cant hang out with frnz all night talking of a silly topic dat hardly matters to u...or just for a sake dat u dnt wanan sleep...all i thnk is we cant bring it back...so we shdnt let these moments waste away worying for how a perfect life shd be..indeed...party hard but of course work hard too....bt y shd someone be always ticking to tell dis is d tym...huh!!!i love my parents..bt they too wanna be proud... :)

Saturday, September 19, 2009

angel..


In a corner she laid
gazing still at roof
pleading it to fall
to end her misery her pain
to blow off a hope
she jst brought to life..
beside her lay her angel
with eyes stuck at her
trying to find reason
of tears dat flew down
of void her eyes looked at
of darkness she gazed into...




unmoved den dey both
heared the curses spelt
looked at the frettng faces
consoling her family stood
her all knowns nd unknowns...
she looked at her DAUGHTER
now for the first time
her bright face looked like a dawn
her large black eyes seemed like drowning her
she looked like a dew as pure as truth
den the setting sun rays fell on her
as if he had come to say her goodbye
before she like him get lost to darkness.....

plans being laid and conspiracies settled...
her grandmother laid hands on her..
but by now a mother had broken shackles
of d fake relations she had bowed to
of d fake society she cared of
of d fake person she lived her life for..

grabing her daughter in her arms
she walked out with courage no one cd ever detter
evryone freezed to astonishment
she stepped out...
with noone to stop..
nowhere to go...
bt she knew dat the settng sun was by her side
nd dis nght was nt too long...
as long as her angel LIVES...

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Cd i ever be loved..


alone i kept walking
all d roads i came along
wearing a smile ,i kept
moving ahead of frayed minds
wantng to be true to me
tryng HIM to be proud of me
i tried to be good
i never knew ven people
walking beside me bcm frnz
i never knew ven i started
meaning dem so much..
gazing at light in hope
through the tunnel i swayed...
unaware i was nt alone
unaware the path was no more deserted
unaware i had people to love me
unaware i had people to love
i kept walking...
nd today wen i turned back..
i saw tears in eyes who loved me
i saw hands asking me to stop
i saw feet tryng to catch pace
stunned i looked cd dis b true
could i ever b loved
could i ever b cared
could i be a reson for someones smile...

Wednesday, June 3, 2009


i always knew I was walking alone
alone on these unknown roads…
I always knew there is no one for me
No one to share success ..tears..
I knew dat ders no hand to lend…
No hand to take me along…
Bt today y m I feelng pain…
Y am I kneeling down..
Y r backs hurtng me..
Y m I waitng for a ray..
To tear dis darkness..
Y m I waitng for a hope..
Wen dey ver never for me…
Y m I waitng for someone to 
Gather pieces I broke into..
Ven I know no one walks vid me..
No one ever was vid me..
Whom m I waitng for…
Its again time to gather pieces…
Nd stick dem again…myself…

Saturday, May 23, 2009

ur worth to me...


I never knew I loved so much
I never knew u vr my strength
I never understood ur care
I wonder y I fought the days v vr together
I took u for granted for all d days..
U spent restless for me…vid me…
For all d time u fought others..
For my tears..for my hopes..
For all the moments v fought..
Hurted each other nd cried…
 till d tears wiped off pain..
for all the moments u played vid me…
vid my dolls venn I had no frnz…
for all the times ven ur belief..
asked me to fight the world off…
sry for never knowing ur worth…
sry for never saying it to u..
how much u mean to me…
sry for failing to know u..
ven u vr near…
nd know I cry all alone…
all again…for u…for ur love…
sry for never saying how much I loved u…
sry…bro…


Saturday, May 9, 2009

WHEN SUCCESS FAILS

The higher we are the harder we fall....for each one of dis who tasted the trauma of failure when dey vr the synonymes of success.

When success failed...

Glory fades away to dark,

Fame dies in a sobbng heart,

Hope crumbles down to dust,

Eminence becomes a thirsty lust.

Hands bleed gathering pieces:

of castles that break,

of dreams that shattered,

of trust that died.

Waves wash away the dreams craved,

Winds blow away the footprints paved,

With no marks on sands of time,

Hands tremble deserted in dark.

No hands to wipe off tears

No shoulders to lean upon,

No words to console the soul,

YOU walk alone ina mob.

In utter darkness even shadow betrays,

With failures as companions no one stays,

The saying goes but truth stands high:

"Be the river brimming with tears,

the banks remain dry."